A very good insight into the mind of someone with OCD... especially with the thought cycle since most see the physical manifestations of the illness. I hope that it's become a little easier for you to manage, or at least easier to understand that you're not nuts. I legitly went nuts one time from an undiagnosed bipolar. I'm glad it only happened once, so I know what it's like to lose your sanity, and I don't think that obsessive thoughts usually qualify as insanity.