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xlovebecomesher) wrote2019-09-17 10:13 pm
xlovebecomesher) wrote2019-09-17 10:13 pm
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LJ Idol Season 11 Week 0: Introduction
If you're lost, you can look and you will find me
Time after time
Cyndi Lauper//Time After Time
Hello! I'm Hillary and I'm 34 years old (how in the world did I get old enough to be 34?) from Rockville, Maryland. I'm an elementary school special education teacher who's favorite parts of the job is writing IEPs and testing students. I live with my husband of almost 5 years (we've been together for 12 years) who I lovingly refer to at times as Doofus and our two kitties (because they will always be kitties to me even though they're 6). I'm a sucker for a good romance novel, new board games (current favorites are Tsauro, Pandemic Legacy Season 2, and Santorini), and unexpected adventures. I root for the Washington Capitals (Go Caps!) and Washington Redskins (I'm aware they're awful but yet I can't quit them). I'm bilingual in both English and Hebrew and spend most of my car drives when I'm by myself rocking out to Israeli music. I struggle with anxiety and OCD but I have an amazing support system in my husband and in my friends.Some things never change!
Been through some bad shit, I should be a sad bitch
Who woulda thought it'd turn me to a savage?
Ariana Grande//7 Rings
The last time I was in this competition, I was processing my mother's death. I've learned you never get over losing a parent especially when your parent is one of your closest confidantes. Every day I wish I could pick up the phone to call her just to say hi. I spent 7 years at a toxic job environment only to get a new job paying more money but in many ways was more toxic. However, I learned how to run a special education department single handedly so in hindsight, I'm grateful because it also got me to where I am today. I've been diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes which I've always joked was coming for me since it runs in my family. Faced with the threat of insulin, I'm trying to really monitor my sugar which is the hardest thing to do because I do love rice, ice cream, and Bubble tea! I also have been diagnosed with unexplained infertility. It's the weirdest thing when it's unexplained because there's nothing you can particularly do to fix it. In less than a year's time, I've had two miscarriages - one at 10 weeks and one at 5 weeks. I've cried, I've bawled, and I've argued with G-d multiple times that this isn't fair but I didn't win that fight. Instead, I learned that I'm lucky enough to live in state that has a mandate on insurance covering IVF and my husband and I now have 3 embryos and we're waiting on when we can have (one of ) them implanted! Maybe third time's the charm?
Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Fighter//Christina Aguilara
Some things irrevocably change you; whether that's for the better or for the worse, that will be decided. I've learned in the last three years since I've been in this competition is that life keeps moving on with or without you. You either sink or you find a way to swim so you can tell your story. Never let it be said I'm not a fighter even if I'm not much of a swimmer in the pool. I tell stories of my mom and channel her inner strength and attitude; in that I hope to keep her memory alive and that one day I can tell my now embryos of their Safta. I never thought I would go through one miscarriage let alone two but I never knew the statistics that 1 in 4 women will have gone through a miscarriage and we don't talk about it as a society. If my story can help someone else then maybe there was a purpose. I'm learning to manage my diabetes, my OCD, my anxiety (it help cutting out some toxic family members/friends), and to appreciate being in a non-toxic work environment for the first time in my life. I've been through more than I thought I could handle in the past three year and I'm here, ready to tell my stories.
Time after time
Cyndi Lauper//Time After Time
Hello! I'm Hillary and I'm 34 years old (how in the world did I get old enough to be 34?) from Rockville, Maryland. I'm an elementary school special education teacher who's favorite parts of the job is writing IEPs and testing students. I live with my husband of almost 5 years (we've been together for 12 years) who I lovingly refer to at times as Doofus and our two kitties (because they will always be kitties to me even though they're 6). I'm a sucker for a good romance novel, new board games (current favorites are Tsauro, Pandemic Legacy Season 2, and Santorini), and unexpected adventures. I root for the Washington Capitals (Go Caps!) and Washington Redskins (I'm aware they're awful but yet I can't quit them). I'm bilingual in both English and Hebrew and spend most of my car drives when I'm by myself rocking out to Israeli music. I struggle with anxiety and OCD but I have an amazing support system in my husband and in my friends.Some things never change!
Been through some bad shit, I should be a sad bitch
Who woulda thought it'd turn me to a savage?
Ariana Grande//7 Rings
The last time I was in this competition, I was processing my mother's death. I've learned you never get over losing a parent especially when your parent is one of your closest confidantes. Every day I wish I could pick up the phone to call her just to say hi. I spent 7 years at a toxic job environment only to get a new job paying more money but in many ways was more toxic. However, I learned how to run a special education department single handedly so in hindsight, I'm grateful because it also got me to where I am today. I've been diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes which I've always joked was coming for me since it runs in my family. Faced with the threat of insulin, I'm trying to really monitor my sugar which is the hardest thing to do because I do love rice, ice cream, and Bubble tea! I also have been diagnosed with unexplained infertility. It's the weirdest thing when it's unexplained because there's nothing you can particularly do to fix it. In less than a year's time, I've had two miscarriages - one at 10 weeks and one at 5 weeks. I've cried, I've bawled, and I've argued with G-d multiple times that this isn't fair but I didn't win that fight. Instead, I learned that I'm lucky enough to live in state that has a mandate on insurance covering IVF and my husband and I now have 3 embryos and we're waiting on when we can have (one of ) them implanted! Maybe third time's the charm?
Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Fighter//Christina Aguilara
Some things irrevocably change you; whether that's for the better or for the worse, that will be decided. I've learned in the last three years since I've been in this competition is that life keeps moving on with or without you. You either sink or you find a way to swim so you can tell your story. Never let it be said I'm not a fighter even if I'm not much of a swimmer in the pool. I tell stories of my mom and channel her inner strength and attitude; in that I hope to keep her memory alive and that one day I can tell my now embryos of their Safta. I never thought I would go through one miscarriage let alone two but I never knew the statistics that 1 in 4 women will have gone through a miscarriage and we don't talk about it as a society. If my story can help someone else then maybe there was a purpose. I'm learning to manage my diabetes, my OCD, my anxiety (it help cutting out some toxic family members/friends), and to appreciate being in a non-toxic work environment for the first time in my life. I've been through more than I thought I could handle in the past three year and I'm here, ready to tell my stories.